By Debbie Olujobi
Not too long ago, I had been on my way home from a land so very far away. My journey each way included 2 rather long haul flights, two 3 hour stop overs and then a 4 hour drive before I would eventually be at my destination.
Tiring doesn’t quite describe it but my love of planes and being in the air made it an adventure of sorts. I had enjoyed my journey and was looking forward to being back home when I had stumbled on a television series just when we started our descent into the last stop over before taking the last plane ride home. I can’t remember the synopsis of the program but a rather pained teenage boy rendered a song so beautifully my heart almost stopped.
If I could keep the plane in the air by some force I would have just to hear that song again and again and again. I remembered the name of the series and I had caught just two words from the chorus “Defying gravity”.
Technology aided my yearning for this most beautiful of words wrapped around a haunting melody and I was on the internet investigating the song, buying and downloading it immediately.
It seemed as if I was getting a much needed booster shot to my spirit and by some weird coincidence the entire household fell in love with the song and we began to hum in tune for a while. It’s not really the tune as such, it’s the lyrics; the words reverberated through my psyche and it opened old and unaddressed wounds.
I felt like I was being pulled towards an initiation or even rite of passage into what can only be termed a realm of doing and achieving the impossible. it was all I would listen to for a bit and I had eventually got bored, actually I had all but forgotten it till a few weeks ago.
Lately it seems my heart beats to a drum played by angels and I am living the song.
I went back to the words and started enjoying it again and with the ears of a much loved one began to address wounds that are plastered but not healed and I must say, I am defying gravity. I am questioning foundations that are weights around my ankles to soar physically, emotionally and spiritually.
It sounds so cliché but it feels like a renewal to look back not in horror at the past but in gratitude that everything has led me here!! That’s defying gravity. I can’t really eulogise a song most people have never heard so I will share the lyrics but I had to put pen to paper or is that hand to key board to document a change of direction, a new beginning. A renewal and validation of a once weary heart to a now hopeful one.
The truths captured in the song are not new, in fact I have lived by them for a few years; it just feels great to find a voice that’s not mine affirming and celebrating the truth that there is a realm that exists just outside the valley of limitations. It’s a song originally from a musical by Stephen Schwartz so I’ll just take the lines that resonated to convey the meaning it carries for me.
Defying Gravity… “Something has changed within me; something is not the same, I’m through with playing by the rules of someone else’s game, Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, It’s time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap. (Chorus)It’s time to try defying gravity, I think I’ll try defying gravity and you can’t pull me down.
I’m through accepting limits, Cos someone says they’re so, Some things I cannot change but till I try I’ll never know, So if you care to try to find me, look to the western sky, As someone told me lately, everyone deserves the chance to fly, To those who would ground me, take a message back below, Tell them how I am defying gravity.
I’m flying high, defying gravity and nobody in all of Oz, No wizard that there is or was is ever gonna bring me down….