I had a mastectomy early last year. Naturally, I was anxious about my altered appearance, but my husband reassured me that it wouldn’t matter to him, but despite his promises, he’s barely touched me since the operation and can hardly bring himself to look at my scars. I’m due to have a reconstruction shortly, but I’m worried that more surgery will push him even further away.
Dekemi, by e-mail.
Surgery of whatever magnitude is a big step in a relationship and the transition to the new life you’ll both have must be gradual. It starts with you. You have to get the life you had back whilst making the most of the opportunities open to you. Treat your body kindly, swimming and gentle exercise would help. Yoga too. As you grow more confident, you start opening up to your husband. Tell him how you feel about your upcormng surgery.
For all you know, he could be scared of your going through another operation all over again in case he hurts you by touching you. Slowly you’ll reconnect emotionally and in time the physical intimacy will return. In the meantime, wait if you’re not ready for more surgery. Learn to love the body that helped you survive this and talk to your husband. Like you, I suspect he too is just afraid.