My ‘Sambisa’ Tale – Chibok Girl

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It was going to be like a normal night

It was going to be a chat with my fellow girls until I give-in to sleep

It was going to be a night with Amina, Fatima and Hauwa

Just a normal night… just after I said my little prayer 

 
A night when the moon couldn’t whisper to my innocent heart like every other night

A night when my dreams will be engulfed by the darkest night

Have my innocent heart committed a crime to chase that dream?

If achieving my goals through education is forbidden, would an early marriage be acceptable?

 

If regrets could turn back the hands of time

If wishes could make the watchman not feel drowsy on duty

Oh! I wished my life never depended on the weak index of that soldier (God bless his efforts)

Or on the frail fence where we even jump over sometimes.

 

In my sleep I heard strange voices; on my feet was a tap…

‘HE’ touched me… Mama! He touched me!!!

Screams went louder from different sections; I closed my eyes and wished it was a dream

Lo and Behold! The very aspiration and my pursuit for empowerment delivered me unto ‘HIM’.

 

I reached out to Hauwa to at least be on same four-wheeled truck to share from her courage

Instead my worst fears gripped me as I heard more Horror and masculine voice

Gunshot loudly mellowed our screams for help

Could I have jumped off like Fatima and Amina; I thought of it but I couldn’t dare…

 

How can this same language they speak become foreign to me?

I called on same Allah as they too scream…

Does a different blood flow through their veins?

My heart beat stopped several times yet my thoughts were wide.

 
The sounds of Crickets and strong wind; cries and prayers proved we were going deep

Deep into Isolation; deep into a cave we talked dreadfully of in our little girl’s gossip

The plague I once feared has come upon me

What is forbidden? Is it my aspirations, HIS Hellish ideology or what I have been subjected into right now?

 

Father! I need now more than ever your love to rescue me from this hate

It’s the 7th day so far and for the first time in my tender life I have seen my period in the forest

Mama! Oh! Mama… they wouldn’t let me do what you have taught me.

Mama you have no idea what HE has done me…

 

I heard some of us have died… some of starvation and some from deep wounds

Mama, it’s going to be my turn tomorrow…

I contemplate suicide, would HE do this to me?

Mama it’s cold out here, I feel pains on my chest am I going to die?

 

You will not be wrong if you think we have taken oaths…

The heights of all imaginations have been done to me Mama…

I will be 13years tomorrow and I have seen it all

Mama, my tender eyes have seen the other side of Life

 

Be strong Mama, I have tried not to give-up…

Be brave as you have taught me to be

If I see you again, please don’t ask me what has happened to me.

If not mama, know that the worse is yet to happen because I choose not to give-up.

 

The stars will never shine bright again…

The moon will set at noon…

The cock will crow at Midnight…

It will never be the same again….

 

But I love you Mama!!!

 

This piece was contributed by Nwazuosa Nkem Kennedy and dedicated to the abducted Chibok girls.

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