By Debbie Olujobi
The past has nothing to say that can condemn my present; What is done is done; time to do new and better things. I do agree with the saying that those who don’t learn from the past are doomed to repeat it but I go a step further to make an assertion of my own.
The past is not the governor of my present; I will learn from it but I will not cow before it. At the dawn of a new year I have given myself a present that is many years over due; Liberty. 2012 was an interesting year in many ways and I am thankful for the grace to have survived it. Liberty would seem a weird kind of present to give oneself so I should explain.
Like most people my past somehow manages to smuggle itself into my decision making processes causing my reactions and decisions to be answers and responses to past events and hurts. The honest truth is that the voice of the past is louder than that of the present most times and its no wonder that our lives don’t move forward at the pace it should. The opportunities are there; we are just so busy looking back; we don’t move forward.
Most people start the year with resolutions and it’ s a good thing. This will be the first year that I don’t have any. 2013 is the year of liberty; this year I am not going to celebrate all of last year’s mistakes by creating a strait jacket of resolutions that will make me feel like a failure every time I fall short. The truth is that most resolutions are borne from the failures of previous years. For those of us over weight, we want to lose weight, so we vow to eat less; those of us lazy, vow to work harder and so on and on, the list is endless.
I believe resolutions come from a place of condemnation and that is my grouse. We survive the best we can in different situations and while I admit to having some not so nice vices; I am cutting myself some slack by implementing gradual changes of the environment and situations that breed the said vices. This year I will not be rushed into making choices borne out of desperation or frustration.
The gift of liberty includes taking time to contemplate and think things out before giving in to knee jerk reactions. This is not the year to be rushed, our responses to most people and situations should be “give me a moment”. The moment should ideally be spent on our knees in supplication to God for direction and intervention; thats liberty.
There were days last year when I would deliberately put my phones on silent just to minimise aggravation. Bottom line is that I have come to accept my tiny place in the scheme of things; I can’t change anything or sway anyone; I fully accept that all power belongs to God; anything else is vain machinations and ego driven. I have never been one to give advice so this year wont be any different; we all need to accept responsibility for our lives and hanging our decisions on advice is delegating that responsibility.
I turn 44 in August later this year and I approach it with graceful acceptance. There are many things that have not happened in my life so far, many things I have not achieved but true liberty is contentment, a calm acceptance that God has already been more than kind.
I am thankful for all the favour, the breakthroughs, healing, love, family and so much more. Truth is I have come to grow up over the years to realise that my relationship with the Almighty is not contingent on the things He gives me; he actually doesn’t have to give anything and if scores were being kept; I have got more than one person’s share!!
So as we begin this new year, I wish you all liberty. I wish you the peace that comes with liberty. I pray that the shackles of the past be broken in every life so that you walk into newness and beauty. I know experience is the best teacher but I pray the past be a servant to the present and not its governor. Liberty is the freedom to allow yourself to forgive yourself and others and release any bitterness that is distorting your view of the universe.
Truth is you are a pinnacle of God’s glory and no matter how many mistakes you may have made, God thinks you are great; you can start again; that’s liberty. In 2013, be kind to yourself first and then others; you can’t give what you don’t have. Liberty is what we all need and I don’t just wish it, I prophesy and decree it in the name that is above every name; the name of Jesus…